So no weight loss today but no weight gain either which I count as a win. I started cutting my vitamins in half because the Centrum horse pills was too much on my stomach. My sweet Kitty bought me the "Biggest Loser 30 Day Jump Start" book so I am going to see what they are doing different on their show then I am in real life. After reading some of the book I have noticed that luckily I don't have an addiction to unhealthy foods. Sure the unhealthy stuff is more easily accessible and no one can say it tastes bad but eating healthy for me wasn't that much of a stretch. I think the biggest barrier for the people in the book and in real life is that they can't mentally commit to the change in lifestyle until they hit rock bottom. Hopefully rock bottom comes for those people before diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and straight up heart failure gets to them first. I hit rock bottom and used it as the cover art for this blog. Thank god I did because I would have died so young(Starting to get a little emotional).
***The reality***
As with any any stupid idea this one didn't take long to implode. The problem became that I was eating so little and exercising so much that at the end of the day I couldn't not eat that little or not exercise that much or I would gain weight. I recall there was about a week that I didn't move off that 170 lbs mark and each day after that week I saw my weight go up. It was at that time my body and spirit quit on me. So one day 1 Slice of Pizza became 1 McDonald's cheeseburger and before you know it I was back at the Super Sized #2 with a regular coke 1,480 cals. I would often do this twice a day. Imagine 2,960 cals for lunch and dinner not to mention the 3-4 in between cokes 450-600 cals. Also a skipped breakfast. No wonder my system damn near shut down. In any event over the course of 4-5 months I was back at old faithful 196 lbs. At that point I looked back with a sad face and said well at least I got my 196 lbs at most I could get to is 204 lbs AT WORST. Maybe 8 months after that I was up to 225 lbs and that's what started this blog.
***My First Attempt***
I remember the first time I watched the "Biggest Loser" was on my honeymoon in Hawaii. At that time I was 204 lbs which was a record high for me. I had been kind of disgusted by my weight but until then had I never really owned a scale of my own so it was easy to not realize what I had become. When I got married I bought one but before that I had by chance stepped on one and to my shock and disappointment I saw that cruel number looking back up at me. (Oh by the way I am a stickler for accuracy so I only use digital scales) For about 4-5 years before that time I had always been a steady and dependable 196 lbs. The thought of me hitting 204 was hard for me to process because I had always thought no matter what I do no matter what I eat I will be 196 lbs NO MATTER WHAT. Of course I did the thing normal people do at first. I reacted and then mentally put it off. See this was about 3 days before my Wedding and Honey moon. I said to myself when I get back from Hawaii I will deal with this because there is nothing I can do now. All my life I will regret this fact because I look at myself in my wedding photos and my wife looks like a goddess and I look like a disappointment.
In any event while flying to Hawaii that thought was a million miles away. However fate had something different in store for me. For six days we ran around Hawaii doing every activity possible sometimes 3 different major activities a day. So on this particular day we decided that we needed to relax and kick our feet up. I decided to lay on the upstairs bed because my back hurt(A by product of my weight). In any event I started watching TV and by chance I got turned right into a "Biggest Loser" marathon and I had to sit there and watch these people. They talked about their lives and how much they hurt. How they would get easily winded. A few years before that I would have said to myself oh those are just fat people and I am not fat. I thought they probably sit home stuffing their faces with cake and stuff. However when I watched it at this point in my life I was floored to realize that they were speaking about themselves but it might has well of been me. Everything I had been feeling inside and the physical struggles I was having had creep-ed up on me. It wasn't until that show that I realized I was some fat guy just like them. I remember sitting there and crying as each one of them described a different part of my life. I don't cry much but each and every story broke my heart again and again. I wanted to look away and turn it off but I couldn't. The thing that got me so emotional was the weigh ins after the narrative. When people lost a lot of weight I could see in their eyes a hope they had never dreamed of. When they cried I cried because nobody believed in them and most of all they didn't believe in themselves. I started to realize that if they could do it and lose all that weight then I could do it too.
When I got home that fire was still burning inside of me. I had so much drive to do it and not give up until I crossed the goal line. So in my ignorance about diet and exercise I did the worst thing ever. I started a low calorie crash diet. I didn't keep and accurate journal. I didn't replace my unhealthy foods with healthy ones. I went to the gym and worked out until the point of utter fatigue. I had joined Bally's gym and by the time I was done I was doing 2 hours of cardio a day. 1 hour of treadmill and 1 of elliptical. I also lifted weights on the off days. I did this about 6-7 days a week. I also dropped my calories to about 300 - 500 in a day. In 30 days I had lost 34 pounds.
***The reality***As with any any stupid idea this one didn't take long to implode. The problem became that I was eating so little and exercising so much that at the end of the day I couldn't not eat that little or not exercise that much or I would gain weight. I recall there was about a week that I didn't move off that 170 lbs mark and each day after that week I saw my weight go up. It was at that time my body and spirit quit on me. So one day 1 Slice of Pizza became 1 McDonald's cheeseburger and before you know it I was back at the Super Sized #2 with a regular coke 1,480 cals. I would often do this twice a day. Imagine 2,960 cals for lunch and dinner not to mention the 3-4 in between cokes 450-600 cals. Also a skipped breakfast. No wonder my system damn near shut down. In any event over the course of 4-5 months I was back at old faithful 196 lbs. At that point I looked back with a sad face and said well at least I got my 196 lbs at most I could get to is 204 lbs AT WORST. Maybe 8 months after that I was up to 225 lbs and that's what started this blog.
***This time it's going to be different***
A little sneak peak at tomorrows blog: I am down to 204.6 and I did it with out the 2-3 hours of exercise and the 300 calories days. Granted I was a little on the low side when I started this time but I am researching and adjusting as I go along. I now carry the Calorie King guide with me at all times and am working threw the Biggest Loser book. Lets see what I learn this time.
Today's Food: 4 Wheat Bread Slices 289 cals; 1/2 Serving Tuna 30 Cals; 2 Banana 210 cals; 100 cal Popcorn; 1 Pint White Rice; Roast Pork 382 cals
TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS TO DATE: 19.8 Pounds
Date: 2/13/2010
Current Weight: 205.2 lbs
Daily Calories: 1,171
Exercise Routine: 10 mins Eliptical
Waist Size: No Change
Body Condition: No change
Mental Condition: Happy and full
Today's Food: 4 Wheat Bread Slices 289 cals; 1/2 Serving Tuna 30 Cals; 2 Banana 210 cals; 100 cal Popcorn; 1 Pint White Rice; Roast Pork 382 cals
TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS TO DATE: 19.8 Pounds
Date: 2/13/2010
Current Weight: 205.2 lbs
Daily Calories: 1,171
Exercise Routine: 10 mins Eliptical
Waist Size: No Change
Body Condition: No change
Mental Condition: Happy and full
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