Day 8 isn't it great

Wow it snowed today and it was so pretty last night. However this morning I was worried that it might prevent my walk with Lady which would have sucked. Anyways I allowed the sun to melt most of the snow and opted for a single night walk. I have started this new program to attempt to train myself to eat 5-6 hours apart. I start at 7 am and try to make it to 12-1 pm. From there I shoot for 6-7 pm, and then again at 12 am if need be. I find that on day one of this program its a little hard because you body is telling you to eat. Mind you I don't starve myself but I do ask my body to wait a little while I attempt to retrain it. I feel it will be important to have your body and mind under your control because in my industry there are days where you don't eat luch to 3-5 pm. I am in computers and I.T. if you were wondering. In any event I may be heading back to NYC to work again and thats where the devil lives. There is so much food at your convenience and disposal on every street corner its hard to resist. For me just one pretzel becomes a slipper slope. You can say that I am honestly addicted to eating and if I fall of the wagon it isn't pretty. In the past I have been known to eat more than 3,000 cals in a day which is insane if you think about it a number two (2 Cheese Burgers, Large Fries, and Large Soda) super sized at McDonald's is 1,460 -1600 calories. I basically used to eat McDonald's for lunch and dinner and before I knew it I was a 225 lbs slob.

Today's Food: 1/2 Jello's 27 cals; 4 Wheat Bread Slices 280 cals; 1/4 Serving Tuna 30 Cals; Celeste Pizza for one 350 cals.

TOTAL WEIGHT LOSS TO DATE: 13.6 Pounds

Date: 2/3/2010
Current Weight: 211.4 lbs
Daily Calories 687
Exercise Routine: 20 mins Elliptical; 25 mins walking
Waist Size: Not sure wore sweat pants most of the day
Body Condition: Slightly Less protruding (no change from yesterday) stomach hang over the belt line is horizontal instead of horizontal then vertical, walking stairs 1-2 flights does not leave me winded, sweating normally.
Mental Condition: Feeling good and more healthy. Feel a lot more upper body strength

That last sentence is actually a problem because I keep almost breaking glass cups in my hands when washing dishes. I am not used to this increased upper body strength and my grip is hard to control. I attributed this to my high amount of fat loss and all around muscle growth which can only be accomplished by an Elliptical, Swimming Pool, or Cross country skis. Another thing I noticed is that my wedding ring is starting to get very lose on me. It can't pass my knuckle yet but in a few more weeks it will. I recall when I first got down to 170 which was during the winter of 2007 - early 2008 I was talking with someone and I was using an animated hand gesture and my ring went flying off and hit the guy in the cheek slightly below his eye. He was like what did you throw at me and why. I was like holy sh*t my wedding ring is so lose it could fall right off. I decided to stop wearing it because every time I washed my hands it would fall right off. I had to start taking it off before I washed my hands because I almost lost it down a drain once because it was falling off. You might wonder why I elected to not wear my ring instead of getting it resized. The honest truth is that I know myself and when I fall off the wagon it is hard and the wagon backs over me twice for good measure. In about 2 months I went from 170 lbs to 196 lbs. When I got married I was 204. On my honeymoon in Hawaii one of the days we were too tired to do anything I was watching TV and the biggest loser came on. I was literally crying during the show because I related to them so much. I remember this one sweating to the oldies testimonial where this woman said something like she would take her kid to the park and she wanted to play with him but she got so winded and she couldn't sit on a swing because the swing dug into her leg and it hurt and she just wanted to be a good mother. This sort of thing breaks my heart because I have always struggles with my weight from the age of 15. It's scary to think that my life could end so soon because I was literally killing myself. It took a picture that disgusted me and disturbed me so much that I made a promise to myself that I would never be that person again. I don't know if anyone knows what its like to be almost 100 lbs over weight and try and do things like walk up stairs and play with your dogs. Even sitting or standing too long was hard because my knees hurt and my back hurt. It was like being pregnant and thats what many small children asked me. That alone shammed me so much that I felt helpless. So far this experience has been hard but watching almost 15 lbs come off me in 7 days fills me with such hope and happiness that it makes it all worth while. There will be days where I will not make progress or I may even gain a pound or two but I need to stay strong and do what I can to maintain a healthy weight.